Gross Word: Highschool Grotesque BitterSweetness

Friday!

The party at work was cancelled,

So I went out...

Orem won our football game!!!!

and guess who was there

cheering in the stands?

ME!

shocker. I know.

It was a BLAST though.

We played against Lehi,

and I don't remember the score! yay!

Saturday:

I didn't know I was working,

so I was way bumbed.

Turns out that the

1500

person party

{that's like double what we have at one time normally}

was written wrong,

so it was only "150"...

aka

like 300+.

Not too bad considering.

Guess what?

Melanie got asked to Homecoming!

YAY!!!

Isn't that great????

I'm so happy for her,

but at the same time...

I'm sad.

She and I were going to go together and have a ball

but now I don't have anyone to go with.

So guess who won't be there.

me.

again.

Luckily I didn't buy a dress.

I don't know what about me is so

intimidating

or

scary

 or

grotesque

If anyone finds out,

please tell me

cause this just isn't fun.

When I was a little girl,

I was a shy fire cracker.

I didn't talk,

but when I got mad,

I'd be vicious and get into fist fights.

alot.

 Now that I'm 16 (almost 17!),

I've changed alot.

I'm outgoing (for the most part)

and I am sensitive.

BELIEVE IT OR NOT!

I have feelings

and they get hurt

often.

I just want to be liked by people.

That's why I try so hard in everything.

It'd be great to be able to walk down the hallway

and look people in the eyes and say

"hi! I know you!!"

but instead

I walk down and look for someone friendly.

it isn't a happy existence.

 

 My mom says college will be better.

I don't care.

I want high school to be great.

That's why I have new goals

 I would share them... but I only want a few people to know.

If you know me,

just ask me face to face and I'll tell you some of them.

but no laughing.

Bon Voyage